I sit here, breaking up a sweat thinking about you.
If only I did this, If only I did that. If only I knew the right words to say but everytime I saw you my words got chased away. Now that your no where to be found. I am dying to see you around every corner I turn. I am anxious obsesssed, It is unhealthy I can't rest. What happened! What did I do wrong, I was so sure you were the one. I am broken twisted and for some reason I thought you were a sign from god. We were a match made in heaven! We could have had it all, like that adele song! I don't understand I am so confused, why did you blush when I met you. Why did you ignore me when I texted you. What was I supposed to do. I didn't know what to say or how to express myself you don't feel something this real everyday. I didn't want to freak you out because I hate it when people hover around me like a cloud.
I am just begging for a moment. One moment with you where I can establish myself as not a fool but as a chief, a guardian, a lover, and someone who is kind of cool. I am a king without a crown all I needed was you. We could have everything happiness divinity it was ours for the taking but I wasn't ready something was not right. I guess this is what happens when you try and control your own life.
I don't even care what I am writing anymore, It's like something went amiss in my head and I am lost stuck in a cloud that couldn't make it off the ocean floor. I am trying to make sense of things but nothing make sense. My head is confused with all the scents all the beautiful daisies, the beautiful girls. There are millions of them in this world. I know I could probably fall in love with anyone of them but why do I keep getting stuck on you. God release me of this curse. Fuck you cupid, I'm going to stab you, LOVE HURTS!
After you I don't want love, I just want to play in the sun. Make out with the boys, make out with some girls, be promiscous explore the world. I thought we could have had it all and now I just want to have fun celebrate because I am still young! I was not ready to fall in love. Love hurts, It's not for everyone, You don't learn about it in school.
So where ever you are tonight. Your probably alone, we both are alone, This I know because your boyfriend is away no where to be found. I hope you call me and give me a chance. Talk to me laugh with me give me all you got!
good night my angel! I hope you sleep tight! And if it's not you that is my destiny then god show me the light because the signs were all pointing to you but now I'm just dazed and confused. someone help me please!!
